Thanks guys. Kris, that is a great idea. Unfortunately we're under a winter storm warning for the rest of the week. But maybe after that. Shawna, I hate to hear that. I am sure it was difficult. I strive to be like your mother. I want to be a good enough mom that even with this loss, they still enjoy the rest of their childhood. I know this type of thing can definitely break a family and especially children. So pray that God will give me wisdom and strength to be able to handle it and do right by them daily.
Autumn I love your book idea! You and the kids could tour the country and stay with each of us for a week or two and see how we do things, study our styles and what not and write about your journies as well as the way America Homeschools! AWesome idea! I would buy the book!
Just read your message. I am so sorry about your loss. I will pray for you and your children. May the Lord comfort you and your children.
sounds like your kids are helping you.... like your book idea.... we will contunie to lift you up in our prays.
I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. I like the book idea and think it is very marketable. Would love to see you pursue it, good luck.
You can be, Autumn, if you truly give it all to God! Which you seem to be doing! I am praying for wisdom and strength to handle it and do right by them daily! If you make some mistakes, don't feel bad about it---you're only human! With the strength God gives you, I am sure you will be able to make positive memories of their childhood for your children! May God richly bless you and give you peace right now! And as time goes by, may you grow stronger, and closer to God and as a family! Lots of HUGS coming your way and prayers going up for you, Autumn!
Autumn, how are you doing? Been thinking of you girl. Yes its hard, I lost my father when I was young too, it is hard on them, you sound like a wonderful mother. I wish my mother would of been there for me. She wouldn't let us bring his name up after the funeral, we couldn't cry in front of her or she would beat us. It was bad. I am so glad you are there for the children. Love ya girl.
Bless your heart Kris. How difficult that must have been! I've told the kids that if they ever want to talk about anything, it is fine. If they need to cry, that is fine too. I've tried to let them see me cry some (even though I'm very private with that, and usually cry in private). But I want them to see me cry so they know that it's okay. Zack has banned the D word in the house. No one can say that Daddy died...we have to say Daddy passed away. We're respecting his wishes. I guess died is just too strong of a word for him. His anger issues are slowly backing off. I didn't want to lose my cool with him right now, so when he's doing that, I simply and calmly tell him that he's finished with whatever he was doing (video games usually) and he has to sit and think about what he's done. It seems to be working for now. I'm doing okay, I still feel like he's here with us. It's so odd, it's almost as if I couldn't cry because I had no need to...he is still here in the back of my mind. But slowly throughout the day I continue to have those thoughts. We pulled one of Sis' teeth 3 nights ago and while we were all happy, I was so sad on the inside because I know it's one of the MANY MANY things that I'll be saying "This is the first ____ without Daddy", I'll be constantly filling in the blanks with things like lost tooth, birthday, Father's day, etc. It's so heartbreaking. I did just find out that we don't have to move until we're ready to (or want to) even though our lease is out, so that is a huge blessing. God continues to bless me with things like that constantly, so I know that Jesus is standing right beside me, holding me up. But anyhow....I'm rambling. I have to go do some sort of house cleaning in case anyone stops by. Then I hope to spend the entire day getting caught up in my own school work. Love to you guys. I know we only know each other in this "virtual" world...but all of your friendship means the world to me!
Autumn, maybe your son feels like the words "passed away" seams softer than "died"....... the flowers died, the grass died, the neighbors dog died............ but your husband passed away ........... sounds like it is more peaceful.???? maybe that is how your DS sees it I'm glad we (your friends here) can bring you a bit of comfort in your difficult days.
Thinking of you all today. What a wonderful mom you are. Your family is absolutely blessed to have you to help them through this. You amaze me, and some day your kids will understand how truely amazing you are, too.
Autumn, it sounds as if God has really blessed you with wisdom in how to deal with your kids! Still sending love, hugs, and prayers your way!
Autumn, you and the kids are in my prayers regularly. I am so glad you are feeling the saviors support.