I really don't gripe all the time.. REALLY, I don't!! I'm actually not going to gripe.. I'm just really having a hard time today.. Having one of those "lonely" days.. Missing my ex best friend a LOT lately.. I made so many memories with her, it's so hard not to have her around to laugh and joke with.. She's the only person I could be myself around and feel like I was accepted.. But of course, she wasn't who she portrayed herself to be.. And I shutter at some of the things I told her knowing what I know about her now.. I feel sorry for her and would love to be able to have a heart to heart with her and tell her exactly how I feel, but it's not feasible.. It would just backfire.. I have to wonder how I allowed myself to get tangled up in such a web of deceit.. I totally let all my walls down with her and got hurt worse than I ever thought possible.. I can only imagine what lies she has made up about me to others.. It just makes me sick that I couldn't see what others around me could.. Oh well, live and learn..
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now. It's rough to lose somebody you care about. Especially when you find out they aren't who u thought they were. Hope the rest of your day goes a little better.
I am so sorry your friend hurt you. It really is hard to lose a friend like that. Praying you feel better soon.
I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. Don't worry about what she says to others about you: just live in such a way that no one will believe it! If they believe it anyway, (as we say here) "dat's dem".
