What a heartbreaking today is for me. I was up spending time with dad and he can't remember my name.... I am all of my aunts but he can't remember my name. The cancer is spreading rapidly and it's a matter of time now for dad. The headaches are back, the confusion is out of this world. He's having a hard time breathing and doesn't feel like eating. I know what is ahead and have been trying to prepare for it but truth be known, you never are really ready for it .
When Daddy died I thought I would never feel joy again. The prescence of his absence was everywhere and was overwhelming to me. The day came when I could smile again and I realized even though the pain was still there, I could stand it. You will get through this and you have the peace of knowing that his journey will lead him Home. God bless you and all those that love your dear dad.
Very sorry to hear it, Brenda. You are in my thoughts and prayers, too. And yes, the knowledge that he will be home with the Lord is a GREAT comfort! When Mom passed two years ago, I was amazed at how relatively "easy" it was. She was "ready to go", and really didn't want to stay here anymore! She was tired of fighting the cancer. There are times when I really miss her, and I'd love to call her up and share this or that with her. And I know Dad misses her a lot! But I wouldn't have wanted her to stay here with all the increased pain and struggle she was facing, nor did Dad or I want her going into a nursing home. Thankfully we didn't have to make that painful decision!
Praying for you. I lost my Daddy last year. It is profoundly heartbreaking. Sloan127 put my feelings into words better than I have been able to...'the presence of his absence is everywhere.'
Dad has been wanting/asking/begging to come home with me and it kills me that I can't bring him here (he'd never make it up the stairs to get inside). It isn't a matter of not being able to care for him because I know I can but I know it would destroy the boys to watch grampy die before thier eyes. He's beyond special care home placement at this stage and the wait list for nursing home beds is lengthy so he won't leave the hospital I'm afraid. And so I spend a good chunk of time talking to dad about heaven and what is to come for him to help him through this.
I am praying for him and for you honey. I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I am so very glad that you are able to help him through this rough time by showing him the love of the Lord. God bless you sweet lady (( hugs ))
