I hope this doesn't just come across as being selfish when there are so many needing prayer right now, but I need prayer, too. With everything going on lately to pray about I am realizing more and more that my prayer life is struggling. I feel like something is hindering my prayers and I need that something to be revealed NOW!!!!! I am so sick of feeling this way and want to be able to go boldly once again to my Father's throne. If you think about it, include that in your prayers...thanks so much. This is a miserable feeling.
Brooke you have my prayers. I know how you feel. I also have felt that way a lot. I think sometimes we get so discouraged about things we just don't realize who we are. We are the Lord's child. Dear Lord we ask to bind whatever is hindering Brooke's prayers. We ask you to help her feel your sweet spirit back in her life. We know you are the great I am. Wrap Brooke in your love and help her to feel your arms wrapped around her. In Jesus name. Amen
Thanks so much, guys. I had a morning of revelations in the Word pertaining to my situation. I shuddert to think that I have allowed myself to become hardened to things I was once sensitive to. It seems one of my biggest problems is a hardened heart and love. I didn't realize that when dh and I were going through alot of marital problems I was in the process of building walls to keep myself from feeling the pain. Now those walls are there and the problem with walls is that not only do they keep bad feelings from getting in, they also keep any feelings from getting out. I guess I've become numb in some areas and the time is now to settle these matters. Time is growing short and this need is urgent. The way I prayed this morning (aside from confessing persistant sin in my life) was that the Lord would make me hurt for people again. Might sound crazy, but in the past I have been spiritually motivated during times I was deeply hurting for others. I have had a problem with sympathy lately in a big way. Thanks again. I know this morning I was able to get up and pray because of your prayer support.
Thanks guys. I'm still struggling...and realizing that I want an immediate change. I have been confessing my sin for a long time now, probably over a month...and I sincerely desire to live a righteous Spirit-filled life. I just don't understand what this fog is that I seem to be in right now. I'm thinking about getting on something for depression just in case that is the direction I'm heading in again. I've had a lot of stressers this year (house buying/selling, moving, new state, new job....does turning 30 account for anything??? ) Anyway, I don't feel like I did the other time I was depressed. In fact most of the time I feel great! But when it comes to true joy I struggle. Any suggestions for this? I've been reading the Psalms and trying to draw nearer to the Lord where perfect joy is found but I'm still just not "getting it".
Brook, I know how you feel, and the only advice I can give you, and some that I need to take for myself, Is to pray but also to study with all your heart, mind, and strength. God said seek and ye shall find, and many times he makes us seek pretty hard.
Accept the things you can not change and do something about the things you can. Whatever that means to you, just take it to heart (heart smilie). It's great to repent for sin, but the Lord knows we are never perfect. I hope whatever sin you are confessing that he gives you will power to stop, but also be happy with who you are.
Brooke, Arlene always told me to go for the book of Proverbs... it has since become one of my favorite books to read... there's so much practical stuff in it. Hang in there girl, it will all work out in the end and you'll realize it was for a purpose... building His Kingdom bigger...
You know, the first book of the Bible I every remember reading thoroughly (at about 10 years old) was Proverbs. I have since lived in Proverbs and therefore can usually come up with a verse for every single problem people face. BUUUTTTTT....I found out that that was part of my problem about a year or so ago. I was dwelling so much on wisdom that I forgot about grace, mercy and love. A couple months ago I decided to delve into a book that I usually skipped over--Psalms. It's kinda funny when I think about it...."there's two kinds 'a people in this world: those who like Proverbs and those who like the Psalms." In my observations the people who enjoy taking refuge and comfort in the Lord love the Psalms....and people who want to be pumped up about righteousness and judgment read Proverbs. Well, like I Cor. 13 says.... 1Co 13:1 ΒΆ Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. 3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. So, here I am learning to trust God and cast off my pride...and I desparately need an older woman in my life to teach me to love my husband and my kids. I used to think that I had the kid thing down pat, but I'm questioning whether or not I truely love unselfishly, forgivingly and without holding back any part of me (which is my biggest problem). Anyone understand where I'm coming from? Not that I don't love my family, but I need to learn how to REALLY love them. Blah, blah, blah....sorry I'm babbling. It helps me to get my thoughts all out there in print....thank you all my online therapists! :lol:
Yes, I think sometimes just being tired makes me tired of everyone and mostly the ones I love the most. Wouldn't trade them for long just a few hours break.
