So, I'm trying to keep my head in the right space, trust God and keep this family moving in the right direction, but right now I'm struggling. I've got 10 more weeks until my due date with baby #5, and so much to do. I have app'ts every week. Ultrasound biweekly to check baby because they say he's too small. It's emotionally exhausting. Plus, this was our 'surprise' baby. So I'm still doing lots of stuff with the kids that I wouldn't have volunteered for this year had I known we be having a baby. Ugh! Some things have started to end, now that spring is coming (thankfully). I've asked that my commitment to sunday school be cut short, but they still expect me to teach two sundays in April. It's silly because some of these things that I dread each week, should be things I enjoy. I just can't get my head in the right space. I don't know how to exit gracefully. bah! Sorry... Just feeling overwhelmed, I know we'll get through this...
(((HUGS))) I'm appalled at the leadership of your church for not allowing you out of your commitment for Sunday school. I wouldn't make it a choice, say, "This is what I need to do for ME and the health of my baby, I'm sorry, you need to find someone to teach for me in April.". PERIOD. GOD WOULD COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND (even if his bone-headed representatives do not). (((HUGS)))
I agree, put your foot down, then put your feet up and relax while you grow that baby. Don't feel guilty, they should have been checking on how you were doing with managing with baby on board all along.
Another agree from here! The last thing you need right now is stress. Cut back on what you need to do, and don't feel bad about it.
I'm going to have to talk to them. There's also a friend who has wanted to have me bring my kids so she can teach them spanish. We'd love it, they'd love it... but we went once and my tot was into everything, and we have still only practiced once. I think we're going to have to put this off until the fall too. When my tot is a bit older, and we're settling in with the baby. Anyway, time to talk to her. I think I'm just figuring out how overwhelmed I am too. I've been careful not to sign up for anything new lately, but I haven't been very good at communicating how I really feel to people. I guess I don't want people to worry about us. But I think it's just time to be honest. I can't do everything, or really very much right now. I don't have the mental or emotional space, and doc says I need to be resting more. Now the hard part - go make some phone calls... tomorrow... on the weekend...
Okay, here's my update! We are officially NOT, doing spanish. My friend is disappointed, but she understands. Her pregnancies were hard too. I am teaching SS in April (2 weeks), DH really wants to do it. But he's doing the hard part. We have to take the kids up to the top floor for large group, sit on the floor, then stand and do action songs, sit for story, then go down two flights of stairs for small group that we teach. HE'S going to dot he upstairs portion because it's just too tough for me with sore hips etc. I'll meet him downstairs and do the teaching part (that's the part he's not comfortable with). He does the crowd control downstairs. They have found someone to cover May and June. (PTL!!) Now my hips are so sore I can hardly walk, so I start physio on Monday for that. Ugh!! But my MIL is still a saint! She's been helping every Monday with childcare while I go to app'ts and she helps with chores while she's here. I am feeling more supported, and less alone now. Thanks for praying and writing! It really helps to vent, and be encouraged to actually make the changes that need to be made. Since talking to the people I needed to speak with about these issues, I feel like they care too. Thanks!
