Amy, you are right we do love you and I have been praying for you, your son and family. With a loving mother and father as he has, he will be ok.
Amy, this is what they typically see when a child is first admitted - the honey moon phase - all looks great to them initially until they settle in and then when they are familiar with the environment and more comfortable with it, their true behaviors start to show They would be shocked if he was the text book ideal child... They need to see him at his best adn at his worst - that's the easiest way for them to treat him. Maybe this could be a time for you and your husband to search out some kind of couple counselling. No marriage is perfect and it kind of sounds as though there may be some issues you have both been dealing with (employment being one of them) that you can work on together to try to come out of all of this ahead, sanity intact :wink: Hang in there - you'll always hear opinions from others that might not be what you want to hear (ie sister thinking you need to part ways with your husband - only you and your husband can answer that one). It's between you, your husband and God... look to the Cross and you won't go wrong. Hang in there doll
Amy, I am sure glad you feel loved her, because we do love you and with you and your family well. Hang in there keep that head high... I am praying things get better for you all soon....
My heart is slowly excepting this. I still think of him nonstop. I don't know what to do with myself. I am trying to keep busy. We had a good visit today but the time went just as fast. He still wants to come home but is not asking us over and over. He knows at the earliest it would be monday. I don't think it will be. They have taken him off one of his meds. Why I'm not sure I can't talk to the doctor til Monday or someone that has an anwser for me. So I really don't know what is going on. They are able to tell me what he is doing right now and acting like but I'm not sure of his treatment plan. My mom took him the stuff animal that he likes to sleep with at her house to him to day. He was happy about that and when we left he went and got it to hold. He will be able to call us later before he goes to bed. Well I'm lossing my train of thouht something I have been doing alot lately. Its been nice to talk and release some of what I have been feeling.
Amy, lean on that dh of yours and keep that head high... it's got to be hard but with support I know you will get through this. remember we are here for you all.
Our visit went well yesterday. Devin is doing ok, he is moved up to level 3 which he was very happy about he gets to stay up to 10pm and play vedio games. (nitendo 64). He seems to be doing what they want him todo. There are moments when I am a mess and others when I am ok but still thinking. When we visit I am reminded that I have a lot to be thinkful for. There are several younger childern there and others with alot bigger problem or severally menal damage. It is sad to see all those children. Some with parents there visiting and other that noone seems to be there for. I will hopefully get to talk to someone today for then just a nurse who can tell me about his day. I have a feeling he will be coming home soon. I just need to know what is going on and what we do from here. I would like to find another place to take him for conciling and med treatment. I don't like the way they have been handling things at the local center we go to. Please just cont. to pray. I have to get ready for work and then I have to go to the denist today. I had my upper teeth pulled at the beginning of summer and I in the process of get fake ones. If I don't go today then I can't get back in til later October. Please also pray that a job will come soon for my hubby. This is a big stress factor for our family right now. I have family support but really would love to be back on our own feet. AGain thanks to all of you who have been there for me. God Bless!!
Amy, I didn't know dh lost his job, I will pray he finds something soon. I hope you can find the help your son needs before he comes home and they have it all lined up for you all. Hope you have a wonderful day.
Devin is having a rough afternoon. Because he can't come home today. Please just lift him up in prayer!!
Amy, I'm praying for your family, especially Devon, that he not feel rejected by you, that he'll know you love him, and that he can get real help there. I know what you mean by thinking about him all the time, and I pray that somehow (maybe in the Word) that God will encourage and comfort you.
We are praying here too! This obviously isn't easy! But don't second-guess yourself, or let Devon or anyone make you feel guilty for this! It's something he needs, and he needs to go through the whole process, or it will just be a waste of time! Stay strong Amy, you're doing what you feel is best for him, and we here are supporting and praying for you, your dh and your son!
Well this is what is happening now. We had a good visit but when we left it got hard again for him. Then when he called he was very upset with his father and I. Right now he has turned the table and thinks we don't love him, we just want to get rid of him. I know in my heart and deep in his he knows this is not true. I think its just part of the process. I will not get to take to him til 12:30 today and I hope and pray he has calmed and we can talk without him being mad at us. Please just cont. to pray. We have a family session tomorrow. So one more day and I will know alittle more of what is going on and what still needs to happen before I can have my baby home. I miss him so much. Last night I just wanted to hold him like when he was little a sing "Jesus loves you". It was a long night for me!
I can't imagine how hard this is for you, Amy. I just recently went through a very difficult time with my sister when her son, after many years of trouble, was sent to prison for at least 2 or more years. I think you are doing the right thing for your son by intervening so early in his life. I can't help but wonder, had my sister been more aware to do this for her son early on, where my nephew might be today. But I know God is working in his life and for whatever reason needed to go through all he has to get where he is today with the Lord. I pray that God strengthens you, gives you peace and hope during this very difficult time.
Amy, my heart just aches for you... I just want to cry with you all... hang in there. You are doing the right thing.. for everyone
