I've started working back at the Boys and Girls Club for the summer program. When I was first offered the job back in February I declined because I didn't want to work with my ex best friend. I felt like it was a bad idea. I was offered it again and thought I might need to think on this, but still, I wasn't sure it was the right thing. The hours and pay were perfect. My girls could go with me and I wanted to take some of the pressure off my hubby to support us and help him not to have to be working so hard with his severe health issues. So, after praying about it and talking with my husband, We decided it would be good for the summer. I also prayed during that time, that if I'm supposed to be at "the club" that the job would become a full time position. Well, there's a HUGE possibility that it could be. And with that comes a BIG raise and health insurance meaning that my husband would be double covered with health insurance through BCBS!!! I ReAlLy want this job!! Please pray for me to accept whatever happens. I WANT this job so bad I can hardly stand it!! I WANT to make a difference with these kids and at the same time I know that maybe this might not be God's plan for me at this time.. Hubby's a little down about the raise part because he feels like a failure since I would be making more than he does. He takes it very literal that HE is supposed to support his family. That's not a bad thing, He just needs to realize that we ARE a team in this. So pray for him to see that it's not "I make this much and you make that much" kinda thing. We are working TOGETHER to take care of our family. It's going to be really hard though, because I'll still have a full time job at home. We are going to have to figure out how to juggle things like house work and cooking.. I CAN do it!! I CAN do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me!!!!!! I'm considering going back to school as well. This may very well be the last year of homeschooling for us, We will have to see how it's going to go this year. I may have to homeschool at odd hours to get through this year. ((sigh)) So pray for me AND my family.. Thanks a ton!
Will definitely be sending some prayers your way...particularly for hubby's health. If he gets some relief from his back issues, all of you will feel so much better. Crossing my fingers for your job, too! Here's a fun story about my "Ex Best Friend". I met her in first grade. We were inseparable and like sisters through school....and of course in high school we had a stupid boy come between us. My boy next door...guy I grew up with, lived literally next door. We had a path worn through a back field to each other's houses. Our moms were best friends, we went to church together, we hung out together after school every single night and spent most summers riding bikes, hanging out. Neither of us could remember meeting (we were toddlers when we met)....we'd just always been there. My best girlfriend dated him, fell stupid in love with him, and ended up being more intimate than she should have so young. He was the big one....the first true love. They had a stormy immature relationship and broke up....but she was hooked. This jerk took us both for a ride. Worse, he manipulated and lied to both of us for fun, and was too much of a kid to realize what a truly horrible thing he'd done. We didn't talk until her dad died a couple years later in our senior year. We made a kind of peace then...but things were too messed up to fix, and with her loss, I didn't want to push. Couple of years later, at her wedding, my husband asked me on our first date! He was one of her ushers, and was the brother of our other good friend...who she'd also been close to. When I had my daughter, she came to visit me in the hospital. Had been six years since I'd seen her. We went to lunch a few times and felt a lot better about the past. But she was married to a controlling creep of a guy, and it made it hard for her to get out a lot. About eight years ago...she divorced the creep and married a really great guy. We started talking almost every day, and starting getting together for "girl's night" once a week. Sometimes she comes to my house...which is always full of teenagers. She has no kids, and dotes on Elle like a fairy godmother. She enjoys the craziness of my house...and I enjoy the quiet of her house! LOL. Mostly we go to her house on "girl's night" because her hubby works 2nd shift, and we can pick up take out, and sit on the deck and talk for hours. My "decompression" evening with my best buddy...saved my sanity on more occasions than I'd care to admit. But the whole moral of this long winded tale....is that sometimes you ex-best-friend turns out to be your best friend again. Even when life throws up some tough challenges. My best girl friend is like a sister to me...even better than a sister. We've been down so many crazy roads. Women really need a good solid female friend...who is THERE for them, who HEARS them and who can make them laugh so hard they pee. It is SUCH an important relationship. Don't underestimate the value of it in your life. Do your best to get over your crap and salvage friendships that are reciprocal and make you feel good. All relationships are tricky....just keep working at it.
