Please don't think less of me - prayer request

I have been hesitating to post this, but I've got to ask for prayer.

We have three boys ages 5, 3, and 20 months. I absolutely DO NOT want another baby. I didn't want a third, but not this strongly. (of course, now that my youngest is here, I love him to death, but was still a bit depressed when I saw the two lines on the stick).

Anyhow, I'm finally moving ahead with life. Our youngest is old enough that people don't run screaming when I ask them to babysit from time to time. I can get house work done. Etc. I really don't want to start over.

All this to say that I think I might be pregnant. I'll take the test Tuesday if there is no menses before then. I'm due today or tomorrow. I've had some early signs, but it could be other things.

I know it probably sounds terrible, but please pray that I am not pregnant. I'm just not sure how I'd handle it if I was. Also, please pray for my attitude towards DH. I'm angry at him and trying not to be. I don't think he's even picked up on it...lol. But really, I need a change of heart. See, he promised me while I was pregnant with Xander that he'd use our tax return to get a vasectomy. It was his idea, actually. We just can't afford for me to have my tubes tied, but the procedure for him is relatively cheap. And a lot less invasive. It didn't happen. He promised again last year... and again didn't follow through. I guess I just feel like I wouldn't have to go through this if he had just done what he promised. I mean, I get sick to my stomach and horribly depressed if I'm even one day late.

I can't take any BC (not even an IUD) but we try to use NFP. Problem is that with my hormonal issues it can be a little inaccurate. We do take other precautions as well, but the fact that Xander is here means that they don't always work, either.

I'm sorry that I'm rambling. When I try talking to my RL friends they just lecture me about accepting God's will and how much of a blessing babies are and don't I know that some women would give anything to have just one baby and on and on.

 

I will be praying for you!!

 

Prayers here, Amie!

 

I am praying for you, and understand you perfectly! I love kids and know that babies are form God, many of may friends have big families, but I absolutely resent getting PG and having another child now (my youngest is 1). I love my kids and want to give the best to them, and feel that having another baby would make it all more difficult. SO, all this to say, do not feel condemned for having those feelings.

 

Praying here. What is "RL"?

 

My prayers, too, are with you

RL is Real Life as opposed to Internet Life

 

Duh...Thanks!

 

I don't think this is a terrible or selfish request at all. I understand completely and hope you are not expecting, as well. If it were me, I'd tell hubby he's being selfish, and I'd keep my distance -intimately- until he follows through. I'd accompany him to the appointment and wait for him to be done, too. I actually did this when my husband had one. Months old Jeannie and I sat right there until Daddy walked out!
Your RL friends remind me of that old saying 'Opinions are like underarms- everyone has them, and most of them stink.' Don't let them make you feel bad, this is your life and your body, not theirs.

 

oh, honey- (((hugs))) I don't judge you at all! It's easy to think of someone else's baby as a blessing! I have cried at the lines on the stick. I am praying for you.

 

Amie, I don't look down at you, it's your body and your choice, you and your dh have to be the one to decide if you can afford anymore and if you handle anymore, people can say what people want to say, it's easier to say things when you aren't in those shoes at the time... Like the saying goes easier said then done.. I agree with Becky, you need to march that man right down there and wait till he has it done, if you are sure you don't want anymore.. I know he's a big man, but men need to be babysat from time to time and they still need those hands held.. tell him until he gets fix there is no more sex and see how long it will be, before he makes a appointment.

 

Praying here.

 

Prayers here.

 

Sadly, now that would have to wait until February for our tax return. But then, I will gladly put my foot down.

 

I'm parying for you girl. Not selfish at all. You need to grab your hubby and drag him to have it done. He said he would now he needs to follow through. You have a lot on your plate now and I'll just be praying for your whole family.

 

I will pray for you.

Please don't withhold yourself from your dh, that is wrong and can cause other troubles that would not be wanted.

Your post is very close to my heart.
God is faithful and will see you through.
Please live each day knowing that he loves you dearly and guard your thoughts...
((((big hugs)))))

 

I was hoping someone else felt that way. Obviously your dh is not entirely comfortable with the decision of a vasectomy. I think you need to sit down and discuss the "why" behind him not following through. If your dh does not want a vasectomy, you have to respect his wishes, and you both need to discuss other options.

My dh has had a vasectomy. He did it without much discussion. Just a hormonal outburst from his pregnant wife and he made the appointment. (something along the lines, of "I never want to be pregnant again!") We now regret it. It was a decision made in haste, without seeking God's will.

BTW, I was in complete denial with #4, so I can understand your feelings about not wanting another. Now she's such a joy!

I'll be praying for you and your dh. This is not an easy decision.

 

Praying for you!!! No matter what, it will be ok. THe Lord is always at your side!!

Here is a thought, (cause I think it is happening to me)...could you be going through pre menopause? Lately, my cycles have been might wacky. I am 34 and dont wanna be pre meno, but my best friend is 34 too and she has started premeno....(she has 5 kiddos though, she can kinda deal, I really really want one more, I dont want dd to be an only!).....Regardless, praying for you dear!!!

 

I'm praying for you, too.

 

Praying for God's will for you. (((hug)))

 

Oh Amie! I don't know where to begin. I want to cry and I want to laugh. I am right there with ya! I do not want a third child. My dh hem hawed about geting a vasectomy. He finally agreed and then got this promotion and had to cancel the appointed for the consult. I have to now make another appointment....blah...blah...blah.... lol. I live in TERROR of a positive pregnancy test. You are not selfish or wrong. At some point in our lives we are simply done having kids. There is nothing wrong with that. My dh doesn't want anymore either and the thought of pregnancy turns us both off. LOL. Then we have weak moments and I am praying for my period to come! LOL. I have had every symptom know to man of being pregnant while NOT being pregnant. lol. I think a lot of it is just nerves.

Ok...don't withhold from your dh. That will cause problems way beyond this. Find another way...there are other forms of bc.

Also...if the worse happens and you are pregnant...as bad as that sounds it will turn out to be the best thing ever. YOu will never regret having a child. You may regret the situation surrounding it...things you didn't get done...etc....etc... However, a child is never anything less than a blessing.

Ok...that is the pep talk I give myself before peeing on a stick only to find an overwhelming joy and blessing by seeing NOT PREGNANT.

I know how you feel. I pray that I don't get pregnant again. I think I need to call and make an appointment for my dh. Our insurance covers it.